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Wednesday, January 6 @ 10:01 PM
myall  i dont see any happy ending between boyfriend and me now. everday without fail, we fight over small matters. sometimes, it may be alternately. today we'r happy and the other day, we quarrel. i can say that i may be too much, but he too wont let things go for a rest. and if anything were to happen, only one party get blame for everything. being a perfect girlfriend is difficult. you cant be perfect all the time. sometimes you just want to do things recklessly. i know how my boyfriend feel when i never care about him. and i know how he feel when i shout at him for no reason. and i obviously know how he feel when we are more like friends then we should be. but all i want him to do is to understand and balance things properly and slowly. i want him all to me, but i also want him as a friend. where i could tell him anything and everything without him getting mad. and that he will still be there eventho everyone had left. but, he just wont understand me for that. he want me all to him as a girlfriend. i know, everyone does. but it wont do any harm if at certain times, we be friends. at least we still have each other grips. sigh~ i dont know what more to say. things will just go to drain even if i try explaining to him. he just wont listen. maybe, he just dont bother. he thinks im wrong and he dont. he say he blame me a lil when he actually blame me tooo many. he sees my wrong but he dont see his. tell me, why should i cry out of no reason ? why should i waste my tears when things dont hurt my feelings ? i cry for reason and i cry for him. and i know, even if he were to understand this all, he would still start all fight over again. i know him too well when it comes to arguement. |
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