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Monday, January 25 @ 9:43 PM
doyouknowwhatsworthfightingfor  "I never meant to start a war. you know, i never wanna hurt you. don't even know what we're fighting for. why does love always feel like a battlefield." had a great fight between boyfriend that day. but we'r cool now. back to square one. i love that monkey soo much(((: Friday, January 22 @ 11:50 PM
mymotionswerentright  i feel like a freak now not talking to my mum. we had some arguements that night and i "so called" raise up my voice a lil. i know it sounds rude but this wouldnt be this way if she hadnt pester me to go to bed when she knows im busy doing my resume which the deadline was suppose to be today. and she yell at me just because i didnt turn and look at her and kept on repeating, " i told you to sleep. its late. go to bed.. blahblahblah" well, i too have the right to be angry. and i know best that this isnt my fault.(exclude the part which i raise up my voice) and boyfriend keep on asking me to talk to her and say sorry and stuff which ive already did the moment she walk away. but still, she havent say anything yet. i know boyfriend is trying hard to have this situation to be peace back but, this thing wont even work. even if i kneel down and seek for forgiveness. i know her to well. urgh! why must she be so sensitive nowadays. and because of this, friend says i have a heart of a stone. ya rightt~ i am so hating this freaking cold war. sometimes, i just hate life. Wednesday, January 20 @ 8:51 PM
itrustmyinstinct  the thoughts of chocolate is amazingly simple. but when it comes to learn about its history,origins and also culture, it brings you to brain damage. and instantly, it leads you to start banging yourself to the walls. trust me. because im going tru this nightmare, right now. ive been doing this research for a thousand of times and i dont have the idea to where to start. and my page is still blankly clean. and im still not done with my resume and cover page which i HAVE to send it on friday. and the deadline for my chocolate left only a month and five days. and im yet to start anything. how great ? and soon, my monday will be filled up by my french class which ive already decided to join, and my friday will be occupied by my cca. i didnt know dropping 6 points from my gpa points could affect me this much. and im beginning to be so freaking active in things just to get my As. like seriously. and this isnt me to be such a way. HAH ! life is soooo freaking tight now. i need a serious break. TATA ! Wednesday, January 13 @ 9:04 PM
afunnythingaboutlove  im sick. so veryvery sick. i can barely move my body and turn my head. my whole body is aching. i keep on coughing without stoping sneezing like nobody business and my nose is like a tap water. it goes on and off automatically. i really dont have the idea on how i could get affected. noone around me is sick. grr~ it must be the air pollution that i inhale the everytime i ride home with boyfriend. it is so annoying. and the doctor gave me two days mc. and if im still not better yet, i must see him AGAIN. how cruel ? and the total amount of medy i have is, 5. and all is tablet except for the cough thing. it is syrup. and i hate syrup. it taste nothing but bitter. i still prefer my darkdark chocolate. at least, it taste nicer then the medy. and im serious. anyway, thanks to boyfriend for sending me. i wouldnt know how to get there without him. ((: Friday, January 8 @ 4:29 PM
nobodyknowswhatifeel  people say, quarrels make two people grow closer. but all i felt is bitter&sour. and if every fight happen, i would ask myself, "is this necessary?" and everytime when i say no, it turn worst. it seems like this fight will never end. and the moment when i wanna walk away, he would turn around and say sorry. and it make my heart ache. ache because i know it would happen again. and when yesterday he says leave. it just ripped the half of me. and all i could think is, he doesnt even love me anymore. and that point of time, i dont even think anyone would even understand what i felt. and eventho he did have said sorry, i dont think that would make me feel better. how can it be when your heart is totally crushed. and the thing about a relationship is not about finding the right person but it is about you being the right person. all i want him to know is that, i love him. and he is not just my another boyfriend. he mean a whole lot of thing to me. i swear. not because he is a no mat rep. but it's about he is someone who i never tot i would be devoted too. and the warm feeling i felt whenever he stand near me and hug me. eventho at first, i did tot that he would be my another boyfriend who will come and go. but now, not anymore. he is someone who i would want to spend the rest of my life with. forever. and i dont wanna share him with anyone even if i have to. *he use to think that i was an ugly bitch. and i use to think he looks like a malaysian pr.* Wednesday, January 6 @ 10:01 PM
myall  i dont see any happy ending between boyfriend and me now. everday without fail, we fight over small matters. sometimes, it may be alternately. today we'r happy and the other day, we quarrel. i can say that i may be too much, but he too wont let things go for a rest. and if anything were to happen, only one party get blame for everything. being a perfect girlfriend is difficult. you cant be perfect all the time. sometimes you just want to do things recklessly. i know how my boyfriend feel when i never care about him. and i know how he feel when i shout at him for no reason. and i obviously know how he feel when we are more like friends then we should be. but all i want him to do is to understand and balance things properly and slowly. i want him all to me, but i also want him as a friend. where i could tell him anything and everything without him getting mad. and that he will still be there eventho everyone had left. but, he just wont understand me for that. he want me all to him as a girlfriend. i know, everyone does. but it wont do any harm if at certain times, we be friends. at least we still have each other grips. sigh~ i dont know what more to say. things will just go to drain even if i try explaining to him. he just wont listen. maybe, he just dont bother. he thinks im wrong and he dont. he say he blame me a lil when he actually blame me tooo many. he sees my wrong but he dont see his. tell me, why should i cry out of no reason ? why should i waste my tears when things dont hurt my feelings ? i cry for reason and i cry for him. and i know, even if he were to understand this all, he would still start all fight over again. i know him too well when it comes to arguement. Monday, January 4 @ 8:50 PM
crymeout  it has only been the first day of school and it have already sucked my energy out leaving me soo lifeless. i really need to get use of waking up early now since holiday is over. and seriously, i have so much to talk about but i just dont have the idea to where to start. well, first morning, the train is already pack with loads of people and these singaporean is veryvery kiasu. in order to get in, they have to push people, like, what gives ? and they dont even bother to move inside to let other people to move in. and they also dont even bother to give other people any space. even if its a lil, it still counts ok ! and if only i could do magics like cyril can, i would have already cast a spell on them to follow instructions, and i swear i would. they really pissed me off. and i have to survive this kind of trauma for like another 6 more months ? and even on the attchmend day itself. oh great, how cruel can this mrt life be ? darn it. and tommorow i'll be starting school at 2.30 and i still need to suffer another human traffic at 5.30 pm. i am soo not looking forward to it. and i dont have the idea how my friends can survive this thingy. and they look so happy everytime school starts. i really need to learn some few tricks from them. i really need to. anyway, boyfriend is not talking to me, so i'd rather go to bed now. toodles. Friday, January 1 @ 2:03 PM
meddlersareformorons 
First,; Never discuss anything about the past. especially the topic about exes. because not all girls like their past. (who knows those things happen to hurt them or whatever.) and girls are practically sensitive about it. they will tell if they want too but will keep quiet if they dont. so hold you horses because they will definitely tell you if they want too. no need forces. Second,; Girls like guys who know them now then asking them about the past to know about them.(especially to girls who really want changes in life) and girls like guys who takes little things that is not serious to be very serious. like for eg, favourite colour. or maybe favourite books or favourite things. because i see guys nowadays they have to be told in order to know. sucha waste. Third,; Not all rough girls are equivalent to guys. they are still girls. i repeat they are still GIRLS. so if you think you want to have any random subject or maybe talking in a jokingly manner, please do take notes. some girls may take it seriously. why ? because girls are SENSITIVE. so guys, better watch those words carefully when you spit it out. Fourth,; Guys, if you think you want to have those randomly fun joking stuff to happen, see if the girls are likely to be in the same mood of yours. because if she doesnt, most likely you guys would be dead meat with their cursing. and im serious. Fifth,; Girls have a lots to say, and if your the type who doesnt like stories, act like you do and act like your listening. BECAUSE girls would appreciate you if you listen to them attentively even if their stories are abit boring. girls, they cant run away from being talkative. note* never ask question when they are talking. ask after they are finish. Sixth,; Girls can be selfish sometimes, but their selfishness is not something that will make things worst, because their selfishness is that they love to PESTER and they are good at doing that. so guys, you really need some patience in you if you encounter girls like that. Seventh,; Girls regret easily. so when they say sorry, they actually mean it. so guys, never doubt it when they say sorry because they tend to get hurt when their boyfriend dont trust them. and they will do things stupidly. seriously. Eighth,; Girls can never be predict so never underestimate their abilities. and if you guys were caught cheating, dont blame the girls for spanking your asses in public. Ninth,; Guys and girls and born with brains. And each brain have their own parts to play. Guys have 8 lines of thinkings and 1 line of emotions. Girls have 8 lines of emotions and 1 line of thinkings. so if you caught your girlfriend crying, never call them cry babies because they are born this way. matter of fact, they cry for everything that makes them feel hurt. and they easily emphasize things. Tenth,; LAST but not least, girls dont like to be controled. THEY ARE HUMAN for god sake. And no humans loves to be controled by another human being. and dont lie guys, you too hate to be controled everytime. maybe for some reason would be ok, but not all the time. Eleventh,; Maybe tenth isnt really the last thing afterall. But do take note, in relationship, shits do happen and when shits happens, come to your thoughts quickly and see why those thing happen. and seek for forgiveness. you wouldnt want to lose someone you love so soon rightt.. ((: take caree.
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