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<a href="http://www6.shoutmix.com/?chanted">View shoutbox</a> ShoutMix chat widget Music Playlist at MixPod.com	Monday, June 29 @ 9:15 PM a fairytale was told "i only thought of you and me and never anything else. the time we spent together kept me sane. you helped me to be myself. what i didnt realise is that the distance was breaking your heart even under you'r best disguise, it was tearing you apart. a dream that's daily coming true and when the day is through i will come to you and take you on your many charms. and you'll look at me with eyes that see and we'll melt into each other arms. you'll be my king and i'll be your queen and i'll be your lover too." tight schedule today but i managed to get everything done before mum gets home. dead tired now. i think i'll better keep some thougts to myself now. goodnight. Sunday, June 28 @ 6:50 PM it is just another moment. HAPPY 57TH BIRTHDAY DAD. HAPPY 34TH BIRTHDAY ABG.. i hope and pray the best for you both and i hope happiness will always be by your side.. i love you oh-so much. hugs thousand of stars shining brightly making the dark sky looks beautiful. with the wind blow softly, i felt calm, peaceful. i felt love. everything that i see, it reminds me of you. you sat there on the cliff beside me. you open wide your arms and i wrap myself in you. the warm that i felt makes me feel safe and secure. but the warm of love that was felt before, i've lost it with just a blink of eye. you gone never looking back. i felt lost and now, i'll be gone. goodbye, i love you. your the missing chapter in my life. Friday, June 26 @ 8:55 PM i wanna find you there wanna hold on tight standing there by the broken tree, his hands were all twisted he was pointing at me. i was damned by the light coming out of his eyes. he spoke with a voice that disrupted by the sky. he said " walk on over yeah to the bit of shade, i will wrap you in my arms and you'll know you have been saved" i wasnt surprised by it, but i never knew it would conquer my heart. knowing you teaches me a hell new lot of things. "death, that hath sucked the honey of thy breath, hath had no power yet upon thy beauty" @ 5:42 PM goodbyee.. everyone wants to be him, the king of pop. even a 7 year old kid. he dance he grooves and he sings. he is capable in doing anything, everything. he is the world wide king and he is michael jackson. none can beat him, nonone can. his death shock everyone, even me. he inspired me a lot more then anyone could imagine. i still remember when i was a kiddie, i used to play his song in my cd player and dance like how he dance. sing all of his songs. and even bought his thriller cd. and i still remember that day in school i sang black and white. god, please let his soul rest in peace.. ); i cant believe that im crying. Thursday, June 25 @ 7:50 PM tell me if time should make a change then why do i feel the same ? " do you know whats worth fighting for ? when it's not worth dying for ? does it take your breathe away ? and you feel yourself suffocating ? when you're at the end of the road and you lost all senses of control and you thoughts have taken their toll when your mind breaks the spirit of your soul. your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesnt pass nothings ever built to last, you're in ruins" million of stars lined up for us and all we got to do is to choose. Wednesday, June 24 @ 10:25 PM i rise, you fall transformers is the best i tell you. tho we have the tix to the front row, but still it worth everything. every single thing. to the long queu and also to the front seat. eventho the back people keeps on kicking my chair and the lady beside me was snoring tru out the movie and her guyfrend phone keeps on ringing. but then, who cares ? when your eyes are already stick the screen and the movie is great, you just wont bother about your surroundings. and i tell you, you guys should really watch it ! and did i tell you that shia labeouf is hot ? hahahaha. well, he's actually is. and i really dont have the idea on why the straits times rate it as 2.5. sighh~ anw, i think i should stop here and shall not elaborate more since many havent watch it.. so people, watch it ok ? and i bet you guys would love it..(: so, after movie follow dee to her dad's house and we or should i say i begin to have my shopping spree at her house. her mom gave me loads of baju kurung and many of it has it pairs. so i guess i'll be wearing the same one as dee for this year raya.. hahahaha ! and ohhhhh, im gonna catch G.I JOE with dee again next mnth. yeay !! @ 10:39 AM your eyes dont lie i was heaving the sweetest dream and feeling cosy with the weather when suddenly the phone went "RRRRRINNNNNGGGG" and pooooff all of my sweetest dreams gone. woke up and pick up the phone, and mum was on the other line asking me to get up and fetch qistina and danial back from their religious class. sigh~ yeah, it was big SIGH~ so hurriedly to the toilet and then fetch them. anyway, i seriously cant wait for mum to get home. i wanna go out. i got a date with deedee(: we'r watching transformers. yeay ! thanx deedee for accompanying me. hugs Monday, June 22 @ 12:11 AM death is peacefull when you'r with the one you love.. dinner with family was great. felt the bonding between us growing stronger.. and oh, thanx for the treat kak :D anw, i have done watching the trailer of new moon. well, it isnt the official one only fan made but still, it is awsome. only that, their trailer make me confuse thats all. seriously i cant wait to watch it tho, ive done reading the book. but still, it isnt 100% same as what it is written in book. sad huh ? sigh~ and oh, mum says edward is effing hot tho she says jacob looks better. :P hee~ Saturday, June 20 @ 11:11 PM with love and wishes HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR CUZZY ! well, apparently today is my bonehead cuzzy birthday.. aww~ she has turn 17 already. so old uh you now ? hahah ! ehk darling, meet up soon ok ? i miss you alot and i love you bits and pieces ! muahmuahmuah ! hugs just got back home from causeway with mum. ask her to accompany me to popular after her friend's son wedding and then to the pasar malam. bought many things and now, im dead tired ! pheww~ thanx mum for accompanying me :D love you loads. muah ! and ohoh, i wanna buy new series of nora roberts. :D Thursday, June 18 @ 10:31 PM and my boy grows a year older today Danial & Adrian happy birthday to my dear baby boy, danial.. wow ! its seems like it is only yesterday i held him in my hands feeding him with milk in his bottle and changed his diapers whenever he cries. and now, he is already 7 years old. he grew up so fast and now he's taller. soon he will be taller then me. hahaha ! well, whatever it is, mama is here wishing you a happy 7th birthday. dont be naughty, study hard and listen to ayah and ibu ok ? love you bits and pieces.. muah ! Saturday, June 13 @ 10:02 PM bits of sugary spice in my life read my horoscope yesterday and it says about dreams later tonight but all it happen is a nightmare for me. i cant sleep till 6 am. well, i did slept at 12 midnight but was awaken by some knocking at the door at 3 am. open the door and noone was there.. ok, thats creepy, i know. so decided to go bed and force myself to keep my eyes shut but then it didnt listen. so put on my headphone and listen to songs till 6 when dad has alrdy awake for early pray. and that is when i really can go to bed and have my "dreams" on.. was fully awake at 12 in the afternoon when kakak slam open my bedroom door asking me to bake cream puff for later evening. and soo here i am done baking and stuff.. and now, im freaking tired ! i seriously need to bathe. i smell like a bucket full of milk.. Thursday, June 11 @ 6:55 PM word of madness is hell *screw you, you and everyone of you ! darn it !* have a bad headache today and darn im bored like hell.. anw, im going out soon. meeting bitchy at macdonald. miss her much.. and to afad, oh whatever. you'r someone who is full of asking questions and seriously you are getting on my nerves every second.. i feel like kicking you in the arse. -.-" urgh ! can anyone be more pathetic then him ? man this days ! sorry, mood swing. i promise a proper update. Wednesday, June 10 @ 8:05 PM way back to the journey finally im home. pheww ~ home sweet home (: well, i miss everything that i left behind.. my JC, my pooh bears, my cody, my compy, and especially my "i lay everything on" arnold. but then KL trip is also super fun. i met cuzzins and aunties and uncles.. well, here is some points on what happen at KL. reach Kuang at 12 midnight with kak ati and abg ayim fetch us at the drop off point. woke up at 7 and have breakfast with cuzzins at macdonalds. then help out abit for abg ayim's malam berinai with his wife to be. big day for abg ayim. and celebrate adek birthday at night with the whole family and cuzzins. pack things up had last lunch with cuzzins, uncle and aunties before heeding to maytower hotel. then had dinner at uncle otai, tupai tupai restaurant. food was superb nice and ohhh-soooo delicious. went time sq by LRT. mum, dad, uncle, aryf and nana went shopping while me, kak ati, aie, kak udi, abg fendi, mamat, siti, qistina, adrian and danial play the games. send the kids to uncle before going to the crazy rides with the rest. and ohh, kak udi cry on one of the crazy rides. heeeeeee ~ have our morning shower at the pool while the rest were still sleeping then heed down to the buffet for breakfast. and ohh, dad bought me a supra thumbprint black white. thanx daddy(: teheeeeeeee ~	Monday, June 29 @ 9:15 PM a fairytale was told "i only thought of you and me and never anything else. the time we spent together kept me sane. you helped me to be myself. what i didnt realise is that the distance was breaking your heart even under you'r best disguise, it was tearing you apart. a dream that's daily coming true and when the day is through i will come to you and take you on your many charms. and you'll look at me with eyes that see and we'll melt into each other arms. you'll be my king and i'll be your queen and i'll be your lover too." tight schedule today but i managed to get everything done before mum gets home. dead tired now. i think i'll better keep some thougts to myself now. goodnight. Sunday, June 28 @ 6:50 PM it is just another moment. HAPPY 57TH BIRTHDAY DAD. HAPPY 34TH BIRTHDAY ABG.. i hope and pray the best for you both and i hope happiness will always be by your side.. i love you oh-so much. hugs thousand of stars shining brightly making the dark sky looks beautiful. with the wind blow softly, i felt calm, peaceful. i felt love. everything that i see, it reminds me of you. you sat there on the cliff beside me. you open wide your arms and i wrap myself in you. the warm that i felt makes me feel safe and secure. but the warm of love that was felt before, i've lost it with just a blink of eye. you gone never looking back. i felt lost and now, i'll be gone. goodbye, i love you. your the missing chapter in my life. Friday, June 26 @ 8:55 PM i wanna find you there wanna hold on tight standing there by the broken tree, his hands were all twisted he was pointing at me. i was damned by the light coming out of his eyes. he spoke with a voice that disrupted by the sky. he said " walk on over yeah to the bit of shade, i will wrap you in my arms and you'll know you have been saved" i wasnt surprised by it, but i never knew it would conquer my heart. knowing you teaches me a hell new lot of things. "death, that hath sucked the honey of thy breath, hath had no power yet upon thy beauty" @ 5:42 PM goodbyee.. everyone wants to be him, the king of pop. even a 7 year old kid. he dance he grooves and he sings. he is capable in doing anything, everything. he is the world wide king and he is michael jackson. none can beat him, nonone can. his death shock everyone, even me. he inspired me a lot more then anyone could imagine. i still remember when i was a kiddie, i used to play his song in my cd player and dance like how he dance. sing all of his songs. and even bought his thriller cd. and i still remember that day in school i sang black and white. god, please let his soul rest in peace.. ); i cant believe that im crying. Thursday, June 25 @ 7:50 PM tell me if time should make a change then why do i feel the same ? " do you know whats worth fighting for ? when it's not worth dying for ? does it take your breathe away ? and you feel yourself suffocating ? when you're at the end of the road and you lost all senses of control and you thoughts have taken their toll when your mind breaks the spirit of your soul. your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesnt pass nothings ever built to last, you're in ruins" million of stars lined up for us and all we got to do is to choose. Wednesday, June 24 @ 10:25 PM i rise, you fall transformers is the best i tell you. tho we have the tix to the front row, but still it worth everything. every single thing. to the long queu and also to the front seat. eventho the back people keeps on kicking my chair and the lady beside me was snoring tru out the movie and her guyfrend phone keeps on ringing. but then, who cares ? when your eyes are already stick the screen and the movie is great, you just wont bother about your surroundings. and i tell you, you guys should really watch it ! and did i tell you that shia labeouf is hot ? hahahaha. well, he's actually is. and i really dont have the idea on why the straits times rate it as 2.5. sighh~ anw, i think i should stop here and shall not elaborate more since many havent watch it.. so people, watch it ok ? and i bet you guys would love it..(: so, after movie follow dee to her dad's house and we or should i say i begin to have my shopping spree at her house. her mom gave me loads of baju kurung and many of it has it pairs. so i guess i'll be wearing the same one as dee for this year raya.. hahahaha ! and ohhhhh, im gonna catch G.I JOE with dee again next mnth. yeay !! @ 10:39 AM your eyes dont lie i was heaving the sweetest dream and feeling cosy with the weather when suddenly the phone went "RRRRRINNNNNGGGG" and pooooff all of my sweetest dreams gone. woke up and pick up the phone, and mum was on the other line asking me to get up and fetch qistina and danial back from their religious class. sigh~ yeah, it was big SIGH~ so hurriedly to the toilet and then fetch them. anyway, i seriously cant wait for mum to get home. i wanna go out. i got a date with deedee(: we'r watching transformers. yeay ! thanx deedee for accompanying me. hugs Monday, June 22 @ 12:11 AM death is peacefull when you'r with the one you love.. dinner with family was great. felt the bonding between us growing stronger.. and oh, thanx for the treat kak :D anw, i have done watching the trailer of new moon. well, it isnt the official one only fan made but still, it is awsome. only that, their trailer make me confuse thats all. seriously i cant wait to watch it tho, ive done reading the book. but still, it isnt 100% same as what it is written in book. sad huh ? sigh~ and oh, mum says edward is effing hot tho she says jacob looks better. :P hee~ Saturday, June 20 @ 11:11 PM with love and wishes HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR CUZZY ! well, apparently today is my bonehead cuzzy birthday.. aww~ she has turn 17 already. so old uh you now ? hahah ! ehk darling, meet up soon ok ? i miss you alot and i love you bits and pieces ! muahmuahmuah ! hugs just got back home from causeway with mum. ask her to accompany me to popular after her friend's son wedding and then to the pasar malam. bought many things and now, im dead tired ! pheww~ thanx mum for accompanying me :D love you loads. muah ! and ohoh, i wanna buy new series of nora roberts. :D Thursday, June 18 @ 10:31 PM and my boy grows a year older today Danial & Adrian happy birthday to my dear baby boy, danial.. wow ! its seems like it is only yesterday i held him in my hands feeding him with milk in his bottle and changed his diapers whenever he cries. and now, he is already 7 years old. he grew up so fast and now he's taller. soon he will be taller then me. hahaha ! well, whatever it is, mama is here wishing you a happy 7th birthday. dont be naughty, study hard and listen to ayah and ibu ok ? love you bits and pieces.. muah ! Saturday, June 13 @ 10:02 PM bits of sugary spice in my life read my horoscope yesterday and it says about dreams later tonight but all it happen is a nightmare for me. i cant sleep till 6 am. well, i did slept at 12 midnight but was awaken by some knocking at the door at 3 am. open the door and noone was there.. ok, thats creepy, i know. so decided to go bed and force myself to keep my eyes shut but then it didnt listen. so put on my headphone and listen to songs till 6 when dad has alrdy awake for early pray. and that is when i really can go to bed and have my "dreams" on.. was fully awake at 12 in the afternoon when kakak slam open my bedroom door asking me to bake cream puff for later evening. and soo here i am done baking and stuff.. and now, im freaking tired ! i seriously need to bathe. i smell like a bucket full of milk.. Thursday, June 11 @ 6:55 PM word of madness is hell *screw you, you and everyone of you ! darn it !* have a bad headache today and darn im bored like hell.. anw, im going out soon. meeting bitchy at macdonald. miss her much.. and to afad, oh whatever. you'r someone who is full of asking questions and seriously you are getting on my nerves every second.. i feel like kicking you in the arse. -.-" urgh ! can anyone be more pathetic then him ? man this days ! sorry, mood swing. i promise a proper update. Wednesday, June 10 @ 8:05 PM way back to the journey finally im home. pheww ~ home sweet home (: well, i miss everything that i left behind.. my JC, my pooh bears, my cody, my compy, and especially my "i lay everything on" arnold. but then KL trip is also super fun. i met cuzzins and aunties and uncles.. well, here is some points on what happen at KL. reach Kuang at 12 midnight with kak ati and abg ayim fetch us at the drop off point. woke up at 7 and have breakfast with cuzzins at macdonalds. then help out abit for abg ayim's malam berinai with his wife to be. big day for abg ayim. and celebrate adek birthday at night with the whole family and cuzzins. pack things up had last lunch with cuzzins, uncle and aunties before heeding to maytower hotel. then had dinner at uncle otai, tupai tupai restaurant. food was superb nice and ohhh-soooo delicious. went time sq by LRT. mum, dad, uncle, aryf and nana went shopping while me, kak ati, aie, kak udi, abg fendi, mamat, siti, qistina, adrian and danial play the games. send the kids to uncle before going to the crazy rides with the rest. and ohh, kak udi cry on one of the crazy rides. heeeeeee ~ have our morning shower at the pool while the rest were still sleeping then heed down to the buffet for breakfast. and ohh, dad bought me a supra thumbprint black white. thanx daddy(: teheeeeeeee ~	profile Meeen im simple, friendly, fragile and sensitive i love nature and i love books. dance,music&singing is a part of my life. im just a girl who dream big and i have big brain nuff said, im humble by nature.	affiliates bayu chacha Deeyana Feminine Keena Rara Adilah Alyv atyn dopstyler.nurul emellia FarahD HanyHOney Indra(culinary) Indra(tourism) Lee-ya-nah maii mirul(culinary) meimei Murnie Nauu FReak;IZZY Scriptz Shah;kbs Subash Tyty Xuan wei yusri Zya;kbs FazliNasser 65Hope RichardJ HyrulAnuar Norfa&Bai	monthly archive January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 May 2010 recent entries i've move to tumblr. i'll leave blogger hanging.th... iwantusback leavealetterinmyletterbox thebestthingishavingyourpalwithyou there'salwaysareasontosmile mylifeisyou somethinghasgonewrong wegotourownthing littlehouse doyouknowwhatsworthfightingfor
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